Lisa Cloud lost the love of her life two months ago, when her son, actor Angus Cloud, accidentally overdosed at age 25.
In a new interview with People, Lisa remembers the heartbreaking moment she knew he was gone, and recalls the light the Euphoria star brought to this world, on and off the screen.
“He was so beautiful and creative,” she told the magazine, speaking from Angus’s room in their Oakland home. “He loved his home and he loved this little, tiny room.”
Lisa then showed her interviewer Angus’s wooden desk, splattered with paint and surrounded by colorful graffitied walls. “This is where my boy passed away.”
On July 31, Lisa found Conor Angus Cloud Hickey slumped over his desk, unresponsive. He often fell asleep in his chair while making art, Lisa said, but she knew something was wrong as she walked toward him. “I started shaking him and screaming. I pushed him hard, and he fell on the floor. I tried to resuscitate him—mouth to mouth—and I was compressing him,” she recalled, sobbing. “I was screaming for my neighbor because I didn’t want to leave him and call 911, and I just kept at it until they took him away.”
“I miss him so much. He was the love of my life,” she said.
One week prior, Angus and his twin sisters had spread the ashes of their father, Conor Hickey. Lisa said all three kids were devastated and in mourning.
On September 21, the Alameda County Coroner’s Bureau said it had determined Angus’s cause of death was acute intoxication from an accidental overdose of drugs: fentanyl and benzodiazepines (antidepressants), mixed with cocaine and methamphetamine.
“It was predominantly the central nervous system depressants. It started to slow his heart and slow his breathing,” Lisa explained. “He got tired from lack of oxygen. Everything just slowed down, and eventually his heart stopped and he went to sleep. But he didn’t kill himself.”
Lisa said that despite her grief, she is thankful for the love and support she’s received, not only from her loved ones, but also from Angus’s friends and fans, since his death. “He went out at his total power, his total beauty, his total influence, and the reaction that everyone has had is very moving to me. You know, he’s not just an actor who overdosed. He was a beautiful soul, and that’s why people miss him so much,” she said.
Rosa Sanchez is the senior news editor at Harper's Bazaar, working on news as it relates to entertainment, fashion, and culture. Previously, she was a news editor at ABC News and, prior to that, a managing editor of celebrity news at American Media. She has also written features for Rolling Stone, Teen Vogue, Forbes, and The Hollywood Reporter, among other outlets.
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